Not Feeling It

Hey everyone!

So, this has been a very long and hard week for me – over 50 hours put in at one job and the other one I cut back on because I wanted a bit of a break. That didn’t go as planned.

I have been debating what I want to talk about this week since not much has been happening this week other than a lot of working. To be honest, I wasn’t even sure that I wanted to write up a post this week because of the amount of work that I put into this and how few people actually read/keep up with it.

Not gonna lie – the fact that I have only sold 1 copy of Laments is like a huge bummer for me. But it hasn’t been that long since I started. This is…. Week four I think. I know it takes time to build a presence, but sometimes I can’t help but hit my head against the wall because it feels like nobody is reading my work. That’s what being a writer is though, right? Writing words on a page that somebody might never read? And I know that I am being overly sensitive to the fact that I don’t have a lot of followers yet, but this is me taking a chance and trying something new. I’m getting over it – I have to or this won’t be fun anymore and that makes me depressed – so moving on!

I have been really bad about writing in general this month. I haven’t been keeping up with NaNoWriMo’s July camp and my whole writing habit is thrown off. I have barely written a word towards any creative project in a while – but that’s going to change… hopefully.

One of the things that has been a problem for me is inspiration. I often find it hard to dedicate time to work on a project that doesn’t interest me for more than a few weeks. I don’t feel like writing. That kills my habits and that kills my ambitions – not a good thing!

My friends and family know that I am addicted to Pinterest. I spend a lot of time on there looking up writing quotes, prompts, things for anime and marvel – I look at a little of everything. I have a writing prompt section though that has over 400 pins. I love prompts. I think that they are a great way to try something new as well as spark new ideas. When I don’t feel like writing, I often spend a lot of time working on prompt ideas.

Some people don’t like prompts because they feel like they are spoon feeding the main plot points of a story. I use prompts as a place to start generating ideas and then see where it leads me.

I don’t have any suggestions about writing when you are not feeling like it. The only thing I might say is try and do it anyway. You might be surprised and write a whole bunch – that’s awesome to think! As for me, I started writing this not really feeling like writing… and I still don’t feel like it.

Unlike other people who would try and sound all philosophical right now about writing and how it’s a process that needs constant attention even when you don’t want to and blah blah blah, I don’t have the energy for it. Who wants that? I do think that writing requires practice, but I also feel that just like with anything else, you need a break. So, take a break every once in a while.

Not sure if this made a ton of sense since my brain isn’t working all that well after my 10 hour shift, but I appreciate the read anyway.

Till the next Chapter,

Amanda

A photography project from my undergraduates program. The influence was a project known as SMASH. I smashed a box and used dog toys to make it look as pretty as possible… not sure if I succeeded or not – but it is pretty cute. 🙂

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